Tablet, Պլանշետ

It was the first electronic device that I bought for myself; I mean for myself and with my desire. I had never bought anything for myself before, not even a cell phone. It was the first time I bought something for myself that gave me the opportunity to widen my limited world and to be connected to the rest of the world. I had not even had a computer before that. It was a small tablet. The screen is not working anymore, but I still keep it.
After getting the tablet, I could feel how such a small thing was changing my life. It was giving me new information, new opportunities. Because of the tablet I learned about feminist organisations working in Armenia and I started to participate in different workshops which made me more open-minded. Before this I never had a chance to think about myself and my desires, because in Armenia women are so oppressed. Society never tells you directly how you should live, but with every step and every word it gives you a hint of what is “right” and puts you within the borders. As a result you are made to believe in these illusions as if they were really what you wanted. It seems that they never told you anything, but it is your own decision to limit yourself. Until I was 30 years old I was living the life my family expected me to. That means my life did not exist; I existed only as a small part of my family who could not look out; it’s like living in a cage.
When I was given the opportunity to finally open the doors of my mind, I realised I could have feelings that I had never even imagined before, and it was attraction to the same sex.